Friday, March 14, 2014

Sticks and Stones

A few weeks ago, as I was surfing the web, I came across this video "To this day... for the bullied and beautiful" through TED talk. In this video, Shane Koyczan tells a powerful story of bullying and survival through his poem. When I first watch the video, my emotions were all over the place; I literally teared while watching it as I could relate myself to what he was expressing.

"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me"

Well, I wish I had that kind of mentality but I didn't. Those words hurt so bad as though I was stabbed continuously.

Yes, I was a victim of bullying (mostly verbally abuse). It all started when I was in my first year of secondary school. I couldn't remember how the bullying begin, but I remember standing up for myself, arguing back with those bullies in hopes of them leaving me alone. However, the bullying did not stop and it became worst; they kept picking on me until the end of form 4. Looking back, I really regret giving reactions to those bullies as I've learned that I should have ignore their doings so that they won't get out anything from it.

Those four years were a real torture. Imagine yourself walking across the hallway, and a bunch of guys calling you "ugly" from every corner. I faced that almost every single day. They even called me names while I was in a running competition, and also while I was collecting my medal on stage. How annoying is that?! The worst was the time when I was having lunch together with my friend in the cafeteria, they took the ice from their drinks and threw at us from a distance. At that time, I was really mad; I wanted to shout at them for being immature but I didn't, I couldn't as it was just me against them, "the gangsters". I had no choice but to be calm and continue with my lunch.

The bullying affected me dearly throughout those years. It made me felt weak and lowered my self-esteem. I was depressed all the time, and it created a mind set in which the whole world was against me and no one was there to support me in any way. Thankfully, I have supportive parents and close friends around me, helping me fight through the battles everyday. And to this day, I've achieved many things in life despite going through that hardship.

My current goal is to continue with my studies, specializing in clinical psychology. I want to provide assistance to those people in need especially children who were bullied and also the bullies themselves, helping them to overcome whatever problems they face in life. Besides, to come up with an effective prevention approach of bullying and implement it in schools. It may seem hard for me to succeed but I will try my very best.

To those who were once bullied and reading this post, remember you are not alone. Many of us were once in that same position as you. Stay strong and show those bullies what you are capable of! And remember you are beautiful just the way you are. :)


Flo 

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